The world hates

There's nothing I want to do more at this point than MOVE ON with my and our lives. But it seems like no matter how hard we try, how many jobs we apply for, how many interviews we go on, no one wants to make us gainfully employed people. And without jobs, there's no way that we can move on. Still living with Shaun's parents. Don't get me wrong, they're great people, but I just want my own place where I can do what I want when I want and not have to worry about what people are thinking of me. We need money for our wedding, and there is no possible way that we are going to have any at this rate. It just really makes me angry because we were practically promised jobs when we went to school. All that did was make us in debt and prolong the suffering. I don't know how much I really got from school. Maybe I learned how to be an adult, maybe not. I'm sure I could have figured it out on my own without having the school experience. I mean, obviously this degree has gotten me nowhere. Cost me so much money why? Oh yeah, so that no one will hire me. Awesome. I suppose it'd be the same if I didn't get a degree but then I would at least have been making some money and not owing thousands. Sorry I'm so negative, especially when I was feeling so great a half an hour ago. But Shaun just got a rejection letter from a company that he really wanted to work for and had told him that he's one of two candidates they considering for the position. It just sucks so much getting your hopes up and then this letter comes in the mail. Couldn't they even call? I suppose that would be even worse, though. What's even funnier was that as they were sitting in the mailbox I was telling a neighbor lady about it. Haha, joke's on me. The cosmos is pointing its finger at me right now and laughing its ass off. Har de har har. We're both just so pressured right now to get jobs and we're doing about as much as we can to try. That's why its such a big deal. I'm pretty sure it'll all work out in the end, but WHEN is the end? Days, weeks, months, years from now? I hope not months and years, anyways. I'm waiting to hear back from my interview last Thursday, and Shaun has yet to hear back from Flambeau plastics. He was in the running at last check. So at least there are a couple of options out there, but I have to think negatively about it. I get yelled at all the time for thinking negatively about things, but they're generally only the things I really really want. And look at what happens when I think so positively about something and then it doesn't come through? This. And the crying from disappointment and frustration that you can't see and I can't really describe here because it would be really boring otherwise. Ugh. Well, enough self pity for right now, and thanks for listening.