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Today.... is a blah day. Sure, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, the grass is getting greener and the trees are budding. I feel like.... nothing. It's hard to say... I don't feel great, and I don't feel horrible. My stomach feels like a deep dark empty pit. It is gnawing and scratching at everything in the vicinity, trying to make its way out. Tearing the rest of my insides to ribbons. Maybe the claws have an anaesthetic effect because it doesn't hurt all that bad. Just going through the daily actions of existing is pain enough. To have to worry about everything else is too hard. Drifting on the swells and troughs of life is surprisingly hard. Watching the waters rise and recede, each time getting nearer and nearer to completely overwhelming me is enough to send me into a panic. But like being electrocuted, in pain while not being able to express it, there is nothing I can do about it. I just keep dreading the time that that wave will overcome me and I will succumb to its primordial strength. There is nothing my flimsy body can do to prevent it - I am a comparatively new invention. Now all I can see is blue and bubbles. The wave has finally got me.